Thursday, February 17, 2011

relationship under construction

so my submissive sent me a message last night saying that her Dom "instructed her" to change our public relationship to "play partners" and that she agrees, because she needs to portray a more dominant dominate role in the kink community, and the hard truth I have to face is this:
in the greater kink community if you really want to be a "successful Dom" you cannot advertise your submissive side. the community is closed minded, and (hypocritically) oppressive, if her Dom had come to me first, or even if I had had a say in this, fuck, if she had changed my status to "mentor" I would not be so angry......
the hard truth she has to face:
I do not associate with those close minded ass hats for a reason and if all I mean to her is "a play partner" then I wont play, I thought I meant more to her then that, she has been dropping the L-word for the last few months, and I reciprocated for the first time only last week, we entered into this relationship with the knowledge that I have a really hard time committing myself to women because I have a bad track record with dating crazy bitches with tendencies ranging from cheating to stalking to attempted murder, and the first indication that I actually feel anything for her and I get demoted? by the guy she started seeing after me? At my encouragement? I have not negotiated with this man, he has not had my consent to dictate the relationship between her and I, if he really wants to make this a pissing match, that's fine, but I do not intend to roll over, just because he says so, and if they both really expect me to play this game, then I will just have to admit defeat and move on, I guess I just have bad luck with petty women

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